Friday, December 21, 2012

To Plan or Not to Plan

Last night, I finally got the chance to sit down with one of my great guy friends at American University. He and I both have had insanely crazy semesters that have caused us to put hang-outs on hold for awhile. While I give him a hard time constantly, he truly is a great friend of mine who I tell almost everything. There are things that I tell him that I don't tell others. He's just incredibly straight forward and will call me out when I get into this ridiculous mentality.

He has had some awesome opportunities this semester (rockstar, this kid) so one of my questions during dinner was: What are some life lessons that you've gained?

Let me tell you, the number of things he listed off can be put in a book. One thing he said that stuck with me was, "Don't just do what you think fits the 'model' of your perfect life."

As I've said before, I'm the "Type-A planner type of gal." And, this friend of mine knows it and gives me a tough time for it always! The more I move forward in life the more this rings true. It is nearly impossible for a person to plan out every single aspect of his or her life. I can't do it. You can't do it. Nobody can do it. There will always be something out of your control. Planning EVERYTHING can be dangerous. Typically, at the end of the road is nothing but disappointment. Trust me, I've been there one too many times.

After dinner last night, I actually had to pause and think about where I am currently. You can say that a lot of things are going my way right now but at the same time, I can't keep going down this road where I force things to fit into this model of a life of mine (i.e. dating, relationships, marriage, career, family). While it's smart to plan the general direction of where you want to go, you really can't
micromanage every aspect.

One of my resolutions for 2013: Let go. Step out of your comfort zone.

Thursday, December 20, 2012

Let's Catch Up

Hey y'all!

It has definitely been a bit of time since I last posted. SO much has happened in the past couple of months. I'm not entirely sure where to begin?

Biggest life updates: I finished my second to last semester as an undergrad and I have officially started full-time work as of this past Tuesday morning. Yes, you read that right-- FULL TIME JOB. Now you may be thinking, "Full-time job? Are you graduating?" Oh no, I am still graduating on time in May 2013. (If I weren't, I think my mother would have a heart attack and refuse to continue paying for my education past May 2013.) Starting January 14th, I will be tackling my final semester at American University with a full-time student course load as well as working full-time as a marketing coordinator with a FABULOUS company.

How would I sum up this past semester? DIFFICULT. Walking into this semester, I had this notion that I was going to take things easy and actually enjoy life. Who was I fooling?? I ended up interning, taking a leadership role in Alpha Kappa Psi, aiming for that 4.0 in school, while trying to throw in a little bit of personal life fun. While I think I hit every aspect that I wanted to, it came with extreme exhaustion. There were plenty of nights where I would get home around midnight after a long day and want to throw in the towel and quit. Learning to balance all of this brought frustration yet it brought such JOY. Crazy, right? I've had so many great laughs, experiences, new friends, and opportunities come out of one hectic semester. I can honestly say that I don't regret any of it.

Most importantly, I came out of this semester with a full-time job waiting for me. No more post-grad stress! WOO! I feel incredibly blessed for this opportunity. I love the position, I love the people I work with, and most importantly I love the fact that I get to do what I love to do most.

There is no doubt that next semester is going to be ridiculous--more tears and more frustration and more exhaustion. But, I have an incredible community of people here supporting me constantly. The last thing that I'd want to do is disappoint any of them. I know deep down that the experiences that I will come across will top all of the tears, frustration, and exhaustion.

There are no words to describe my excitement for finishing up my undergraduate career at American University and taking the first true step in my real work career.

Here's to the future!